Now at the beginning of the week, I began to write this blog. It was then entitled "An actor rests". It was Monday morning and I was sat alone in my flat doing what I hate doing most in the world...nothing. Nothing. I was sat there doing nothing. I guess I was resting, I was a "resting" actress after all... I felt on edge. After weeks of starting out - organising a temp job, building a relationship with my agent, auditioning, sorting out a new flat and grappling with the idea of no longer being a student, to do nothing seemed rather alien. Since calling my temp agency that morning and finding they "unfortunately had nothing for me today" I had been at a loss as to what to do. So of course I began to write this blog about how weird that was!
There were the obvious things I could have done: the laundry, vacuum or simply stay in bed. But I discovered I just couldn't chill out! Even when I knew on Tuesday I would be having new headshots taken, on Wednesday I would most likely be back at work and moreover in five weeks I would begin rehearsals for panto when I really would get no rest(!) - I still couldn't chill out!
But maybe this is a good thing. I have always believed that the secret to success in life is to be ready for any opportunity when it comes. So I tend to be busy all the time in order to be in the best possible position when I am really overrun with things to do and such an opportunity comes along. Embarassing to admit, I am a little bit like Monica from 'Friends' in that respect. However let me tell you that this week it payed off!
Had I not spent that Monday being domestic, by now I would have had a breakdown!
There were the obvious things I could have done: the laundry, vacuum or simply stay in bed. But I discovered I just couldn't chill out! Even when I knew on Tuesday I would be having new headshots taken, on Wednesday I would most likely be back at work and moreover in five weeks I would begin rehearsals for panto when I really would get no rest(!) - I still couldn't chill out!
But maybe this is a good thing. I have always believed that the secret to success in life is to be ready for any opportunity when it comes. So I tend to be busy all the time in order to be in the best possible position when I am really overrun with things to do and such an opportunity comes along. Embarassing to admit, I am a little bit like Monica from 'Friends' in that respect. However let me tell you that this week it payed off!
Had I not spent that Monday being domestic, by now I would have had a breakdown!
For the next day my agent called about an audition on Thursday to be a
"singer instrumentalist" in a new touring production. Now I hadn't
picked up my clarinet in a long time so the thought of having to play
it at all, least of all in front of an audition panel made me feel
physically sick. So my planned leisurely Tuesday turned into a mad
panic to pose for photographs (which I'm bad at at the best of times!)
and prepare for audition. Then came the call from my temp agency with
an emergency department store approval which I was required to attend
two hours before my scheduled audition. And it went on. More and more
things kept cropping up - from substantial things like someone
attempting fraud on my bank card (seriously!) and then (because I was
carrying it with me as a replacement bank card) losing my cheque book
to little things like the need to fill in a costume measurement sheet
for my pantomime. Let me tell you the one thing that has stopped me
from crumbling under pressure has been the fact that on Monday I
cleaned my bathroom and did all my ironing so at least that part of me
was in order!
So now here I am submitting this blog late-despite the fact that I had planned for this week to be the most relaxed and quiet ever.
But guess that's what you get for being a resting actress... There is no rest - it's frenetic and unpredictable, and you just have to love it. And although I do - right now I'm just thinking, roll on my Sunday lie in!
So now here I am submitting this blog late-despite the fact that I had planned for this week to be the most relaxed and quiet ever.
But guess that's what you get for being a resting actress... There is no rest - it's frenetic and unpredictable, and you just have to love it. And although I do - right now I'm just thinking, roll on my Sunday lie in!
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